Monday, February 7, 2011

My fears.

My worst fear in 2011: is getting resized for a bra. At 5'3'', weighing 120 pounds with a 26 inch waistline and a size 6 in jeans ... I've been wearing a 36DD bra that's too small, because I'm afraid they'll tell me I need to be in a bigger cup size. [[I hide my chest size quite well. No one knows that I'm full-figured in that department until they see me in a bathing suit. And then the response, from both genders ... is Daaaaammmn!]

 I've never seen anything larger than a DD on the shelves. And the worst part is, because I'm not obese and in decent physical shape ... it's unlikely that a larger cup size is going to fit my narrow back/ribcage.

I've had people tell me to consider losing weight (and I was thinking: Screw You, jerkface. I don't need to lose weight.)  ... but the reality is? I could only stand to lose 5 or 6 pounds; 115-120 is normal for my height. Not entirely convinced that 5 pounds is going to drop me by 2 cup sizes. 

Here's my version of hell: never being able to wear blouses, because I spill out the top.
Never being able to find a bathing suit that fits because my chest spills out everywhere.
The only dress I can wear is a spaghetti strap A-line ... because the sheer weight of my chest (PS: I'm sick and twisted and weighed my boobs. They weigh 7 pounds each. That's 14 pounds of dead weight on my front) weighs down every single strapless bra. I can't wear sweetheart necklines, scoop necks or sweethearts because it's just ... right up there with porn-star inappropriate.
I have deep indentations in my shoulders from the weight pulling on the bra straps.
My back however, feels fine. Irony.

For my 25th birthday, I want a breast reduction to a 36C.
I want to wear bathing suits.
I want to wear blouses.
I want to be ... not top heavy.
And I've wanted this since I was 17 years old.
And I really wish my husband was behind me on this, because it truthfully makes me a little sad that his selfish response is: hell no! I love that my wife is stacked!

Women complain all the time about having little breasts. And I'm jealous when they go for implants ... because what wouldn't I give to have an elective cosmetic reduction?

Truth: my grandmother and my aunt both had breast reductions before their 30th birthday. Evidently, I can thank my Dad for passing on the GIGANTIC BREASTS ON SMALL-FRAMED WOMEN gene.


  1. DO IT! My Mom has HUGE boobs and I have bigger ones then she did when she had me at this age and they only got bigger with each child. (3) I told Brian I'm getting one if they get and stay as big as her's. I think she's at an H?! Yikes!

  2. You should totally do it. I got a reduction from a 38J to 36C and it has made a huge difference in my life. I can do so much more now. I am so much happier. Check with the MTF, if you have a real hospital there. If you meet military body fat standards, they will do the reduction under insurance. In the real world, it cost me 6K.

  3. Hey girl. I don't have large breasts but my full B/small C is large for my 24-inch ribcage.
    It's your decision. You do not sound large in size, and having breasts that big on such a small person just isn't easy. Medically, it could cause back problems and other discomforts. Nevermind what will happen when/if you decide to have children. Holy shit. You will double in breast size. He should know that a 36C is still going to be PLENTY of boobie to play with.
    I know on some insurances if a reduction is over 200 grams it's mostly covered. Do your research, and present your case. Maybe show him pictures of what big breasts look like after a few years of age and breast-feeding... scare him into it. ;) Good luck, for realz though.

  4. I had a breast reduction a year ago this month and honestly it is the best thing I ever did...besides getting marriedf and poppin out a kid of course. The Marine Corps will even cover it if it is medically necessary (mine was).

    I went from a 38H (I was a J when I was preggo/breastfeeding) to a 38DD. It fits my body frame and I no longer have back pain and I can wear normal clothes. I love it!

  5. WHOA. J's ?! H's ?!?! Eff me running, I'll count my blessings! That's always been a thought in the back of my mind: wtf happens if/when I have a child! Good god in heaven.

  6. I had a good friend who got a breast reduction when she was 23 and said it was the best thing she ever did. She doesn't have to buy special bras, can wear whatever she was wants, and she doesn't have back problems.

    She would definitely recommend it.

  7. Do it if that's what you want to do.
    In the mean time, get yourself measured properly, it will save on the back ache if they are supported properly.
    My friend, genuinely I am not that blessed in the breast area, uses these people:
    You must have them in America somewhere... they go from 28 (back) to KK (cup)

  8. I hear ya girl. I wear the same size as you do, and I have about 2 inches on you..and a few more pounds >< But I get the same reaction. I also get the same reaction from the boy. I told him if they get any bigger, I am getting a reduction because my back does hurt from time to time.

    One of my friends had a reduction right out of high school from a HH to a C cup. She also had a slipped disk in her back, so insurance definitely covered it.

    Good luck.

  9. I'm in the same boat right now and it's so comforting to read the comments and know I'm not alone.

    I have a 38DD chest and it is not proportional to my body, at all. Like you, it runs in my Dad's side of the family.

    I have a heating pad on my back right now because by the end of the day, no matter how much I try to stand up straight or have good posture, the extreme weight just wins and I'm always in horrible pain. I also have a shoulder injury that has been making my arm numb/tingly and there is nothing "really" wrong with it, but it won't heal because of the weight of my chest.

    I want to wait until after children to have the reduction, but more and more, I'm considering it sooner. Hubs supports me on it. He knows they would still be huge and sees the pain and discomfort I'm in!