I did something yesterday that I've never done before: I came home after a particularly nasty shift at Olive Garden ... and I got drunk. Said Hi to husband and the dog ... poured a shot, and chased it with a beer. Did it again. Parked it on the couch ... and waited for all the anger and frustration to melt away.
At some point yesterday, while a little old lady was shouting at me (same lady that was all piss and vinegar that Olive Garden didn't open until 11am and not 10 when she was good and ready) about how angry she was about her service ... I was going over in my mind all the things I wanted out of life. Getting berated on a daily basis as a waitress is definitely not on my list of things.
I'm 110% done being a waitress. The last 7 years in the industry have served its purpose; but there really isn't enough money in the world to keep me content with just putting up. I need something else in my life ... something that doesn't cause nearly the hate and discontent.
I don't want to be the girl that comes home and gets drunk to take the edge off.
I'd rather be the girl that is satisfied with her career and thus doesn't need to file the edges.
Goes home to a husband the fur kids.
Has time for horseback riding during the week.
The girl that enjoys mountain biking and running on weekends.
I want to stop chasing a dream and start living it. My dream is simple: I just want to be happy 98% of the time.